i was feeling nostalgic today and i decided to look through my box of memories and i came across my old diary that i kept in middle school. i was reading through it and honestly, it scared me. i hit rock bottom during the 7th and 8th grade.

it’s so sad reading through my older entries and all i would write about was how depressed i was. i think during the 8th grade my eating disorder was at its worst. i would keep track of my caloric intake & weight and it was so bad. i would always cut and contemplate giving up on everything. it scares me how bad things were back then… 

i was so different too. i’m surprised how much i changed throughout those two- three years. my small stages of “depression” that i experienced over the past few months are nothing compared to what i went through during my middle school years. i’m glad i kept this diary because it made me realize that i can get through anything and i’m a hundred times stronger now than i was back then. 

&i pray i never have to go through what i went through again.